#nowplaying: featuring Nate Dogg

Warren G. feat. Nate Dogg, “Regulate”


50 Cent feat. Nate Dogg, “21 Questions”


Dr. Dre feat. Nate Dogg, “The Next Episode”


Ludacris feat. Nate Dogg, “Area Codes”


~moment of silence for a hip-hop legend ... R.I.P. Nathaniel Dwayne Hale (Nate Dogg)~

(August 19, 1969 – March 15, 2011)

Tsunami Hits Japan After 8.9 Earthquake

My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to those who have been affected by the disaster in Japan. The country was hit with an 8.9 magnitude earthquake last night while we were sleeping .... followed by a massive 20 foot Tsunami, which is headed for Hawaii ..




They say these are the end of days, I don’t know what is. Life is so fragile and can be changed in an instant ... it's too short to bitch and moan ...

Here today gone tomorrow, you never know.

What are you giving up for Lent????

(even though I’m not Catholic) I am so determined to eat healthy and become a better me … I am not going to be unhealthy and overweight, carrying around this oversized gut that makes me look like I'm 3months pregnant.




I am going to be that fit hot mom that looks like Nicole Murphy. She's my inspiration 40+ and 5 kids later .. such a hotty, hot, hot .. That will be me. Oh yes, that will be me! (I'm claiming it)

DAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! (Smokey voice)

I’m also planning on staying away from Twitter and FaceBook those are my dirty cocktails of choice and I’m so addicted - can you say "intervention".

WIFE, WOMAN, FRIEND

I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that my beginning was his end. After all, we were just friends. Although in my world I was his girl, so I would pretend to be his wife. Saying sh*t like, "there's only so many years in a woman's life". Right, so I gave him three.

Yet he had the audacity to step to me on this Donnell Jones "I don't know where I wanna be" type sh*t. It wasn't supposed to be like this. He hit me with the forehead kiss. told me life was a journey and he was ready to explore this sh*t, and I was pissed.

To me he was a hypocrite like a fake preacher in the pulpit and he left me sick, and no he didn’t choose me, but that doesn’t make him right nor wrong.

And just because he was the epitome of my life that doesn't make me wrong nor right. Like I said I was his friend and not his wife. And I should've acted within that capacity. And maybe then this breakup would've been "just one of those things". Instead of a f**king tragedy.

And all the time I spent mad at him hell I should've been mad at me. After all I was the one that gave him the key to my house, and Let him hang clothes in my closet just in case we go out. Not to mention washing all his dirty clothes just to make a "full load". And let him finish off all the leftovers just so the food don't go old.

For the times that we raw-dogged cause he "lost all the rubbers". And though I showed him more support than his own father, brother, sister, and mother and just 'cause those same people dial my number when they're trying to stay get touch. And he received mail at my address "cause he be here so much".

Got total control of the remote control to the TV, DVD, and radio And even though his name is not on my lease got sh*t in my house that is off limits to me like his side of my bed and his stash of weed.

But none of this obligates him to me because not once did we exchange vows. And If I knew then, what I know now, I probably would've listened, when he said it was some sh*t that he needed to get out his system. But I was too busy bitchin', jumpin' bad like I was gonna hit him. And in the back of my mind all I could fathom was how much I was gonna miss him. But just because I'm cryin' don't mean I'm the victim, it's just that I was too scared to let him go 'cause some other chick might get him.

And that was my fault, it was my decision I should've never put my heart in my mind's position. But I couldn't shake him--he was like a bad habit. And all this for a nigga that was just average, doing average nigga sh*t Like talking out the side of his neck and thinking with his d*ck.

But, I must admit he's the one I wanted to commit to. Either I wasn't living up to my potential, or I was just the average chick. But I chose to believe that I was a woman caught up in a feeling. Both physical and emotional, who was way too willing to give her all to a man. And though it may sound stupid, guess what? I would do it all again. Just next time for my husband and not a nigga I call my friend.

~I didn't write this..~Dana Gilmore~ did..a respected poet that I love..I wanted to put this up here so other women could read it and maybe learn from it..~

Happy Lately ....

An unexpected sweet text
A great haircut
A book that inspires
Being tickled
Amaretto anything
A run at sunset
Friends that call at just the right time
Remembering who I am
God’s words of truth spoken so timely
The huge smile on my niece’s sweet face


What’s making you happy lately?

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

~William Ernsest Hensley~

Restless night - I had one of those moments where for a nanosecond, everything about me felt a little off. Nothing seemed right. I wasn’t sure who I had become? Or where I was going in life.

I decided to pray. and why not?

I pleaded to him. I laid it all out. I bared my heart and soul.

I saw His smile, I know I saw it. He heard my cry and he absorbed everything I threw at him and reflected it back in the best kind of love you could imagine.

and then, I slid straight towards a serenity of sleep.

When I woke, it was a brand new day, and I was ready for it.

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

~author unkown~

I want someone to lift me
Heal my wounds and give me
kisses on my head
Say words that should be said
Fear is not the matter
I would so much rather open up my heart
And lay down my guard

Amel Larrieux, ~Weary~

Dear Future Husband ... I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I will never let you go.

ps Happy Valentines Day

"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires. Who is this coming up from the desert leaning on her lover? Under the apple tree I roused you; there your mother conceived you, there she who was in labor gave you birth. Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned. We have a young sister, and her breasts are not yet grown. What shall we do for our sister for the day she is spoken for?"

~Song of Solomon 8:4-8~

"...And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"

~1 Corinthians 13:13~

"A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses"

~Proverbs 27:19~

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life"

~John 3:16~

#nowPlaying, John Legend, Good Morning

"Many waters cannont quench love, neither can floods drown it"

~ Song of Solomon 2:16 ~

"My lover is mine, and I am his"

~ Song of Solomon 2:16 ~

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear"

~1 John 4:18~

"I found the one my heart loves"

~Song of Solomon 3:4~