"seeds of discouragement cannot take root in an ungratefull heart"

Diary of a Mad Black Woman

I love this movie I love this movie. Funny as hell, but also good for the soul. A few of my favourite lines:

"WIRE HANGERS!!!!!!!!!" - Madea

"I'm not bitter! I'm mad as hell!" - Helen

"... the strength God gave women to survive. You just haven't tapped into it yet." - Myrtie Jean

"... I'm finding myself smiling and laughing. I'm finding myself... wait, that's it. I'm finding myself." - Helen

"Why you being so mean, woman?" "Why you being so NICE, man?" - Orlando and Helen

"The key is to be tough, not hard." - Orlando

"Love is stronger than any addiction. Hell, it is one." - Madea

"I do know I can love you past your pain." - Orlando

"Just wake up in the morning. That's all you have to do. And I'll take it from there..." - Orlando

"I'm going to let you sit here for a few days and think about what I said." Helen to paralyzed Charles in his wheelchair

"When somebody hurt you they take power over you. You don't forgive them, they keep that power." Myrtie Jean

"You think you over something? You thing you're ready to get on with your life? This is how you really find out if you're over someone: If you get the opportunity to get even with someone and you don't take it, then you're over it. But if you don't. And you beat the hell outta him, you ain't over it yet." - Madea

"God has the power to show you who's God." - Charles

"No matter what you're going through. Take it to the Master, and he'll see you right on through." - Choir

"Gentle as doves, but wise as serpents." - Tyler Perry

"Sometimes we hold on to the things that God himself is trying to tear apart." - Tyler Perry

"Helen, if I'm away from you for more than an hour, I can't stop thinking about you. I carry you in my spirit. I pray for you more than I pray for myself. I've got it so bad for you I'd... I'd go to the grocery store and buy your feminine products, I swear I would." - Orlando

"I know you don't believe in fairy tales. But, if you did, I'd want to be your knight in shining armor. You've been through so much. I don't want to see you hurt anymore. Now I may not be able to give you all that your used to. But I do know I can love you past your pain. I don't want you to worry about anything. You just wake up in the morning, that's all you have to do and I'll take it from there. There's one condition. You have to be my wife." Orlando to Helen

"Signed a Mad Black Woman"

I love this movie I love this movie I love this movie I love this movie
I remember you in everything I do, speak, hear, and see...

I remember you ... remembering me!
I’m more sure that certain things happen for a reason. Sometimes doors are closed on opportunities for the better and windows are opened. With some things I have to take charge and seek it full heartedly. Other things I have to wait until the time is right for me. There is reasons for everything I believe. I know God has a plan. It might not be as I thought it would be and it might not be like everyone else’s, but it will be in my favor in the end.


i know it. i feel it.

As he gets older, our relationship is evolving. His personality and his will are getting more pronounced. We have our private inside jokes and then serious as a judge moments when he hurts my feelings with his insensitity. It's like he's my man or something sometimes! (shame)




but at such a young age, I'm already seeing in him this beautiful manchild full of complexity and innocence. It's beautiful and scary to watch.



Dear God, Thank you for another year of blessings, peace and love with my child

Lov3 Lik3 by Shihan

It feels so good to be excited about someone again ... even if it doesn't work out, it feels good to get a glimpse of love and that feeling because sometimes, well, we simply forget what it's like.

Found a poet (Shihan) that I absolutely fell in "Love" with hope you like him too '-)



I want a love like me thinking of you thinking of me
thinking of you type love,
or me telling my friends more than I've ever admitted to
myself about how I feel about you type love,
or hating how jealous you are, but loving how much you
want me all to your self type love,
or seeing how your first name just sounds so good next to my last name,
and shit, I wanted to see how far I could get without
calling you, and I barely made it out of my garage.
See, I want a love that makes me wait until she falls
asleep then wonder if she's dreaming about us being in love
type love,
or who loves the other more,
or what she's doing at this exact moment,
or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the
music of our hearts, closing my eyes and imagining how a love like this could just hurt so much when she's not there.
Shit, I love not knowing where this love is headed type love.
And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
all around the house so she never forgets how much I love her type love then not have enough ink in my pen to write all there is to love about her type love.
Hope that I make her feel as good as she makes me feel, I want her to distract me from whatever I'm doing type love
and I want to deal with my friends making fun of me the
way I made fun of them when they went through the same kind of love type love.
Only difference is this is one of those real love type loves.
and just like in high school, I want to spend hours on the phone with her not saying shit,
then fall asleep and wake up with HER right next to me,
and smell her all up in my covers type love
I want to try counting the ways I love her, and then
lose count in the middle just so that I have to start all
over again type love
I want to celebrate one of those month anniversaries even
though they ain't really anniversaries, but doin' it just
cause it makes her happy type love.
And I want to break down the time we spend together into seconds just so it sounds lilke we spend more time together type love
And check this, I want to fall in love with the melody the
phone plays when her number is dialed into it type loves
and then talk to her until I lose my breath, she leaves me breathless, but with the expanding of my lungs I inhale all of her back into me
I want a love that makes me need to change my cell phone calling plan to something that allows me to talk to her longer
because, in all honesty, I want to avoid one of them high cell phone bill type loves.
I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are
I mean the lines on my palms don't give me enough time to love her as long as I'd like to type loves,
and I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter just thinking
about how strong this love is type love.
I want a love that makes me want to cut off all my hair...
Well, maybe not all of the hair
maybe just cut the split ends and trim my mustache, but
it will still be a symbol of how strong my love is for her.
And check this, I kinda feel comfortable now, so I can tell y'all this: I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light just dying to get hit by a car just so I could lose my memory
get transported to some third world country just to get treated then somehow meet up again with you so that I could fall in love with you in a different language to see if it still feels the same type love.
I want a love that's as unexplainable as she is, but I'm married, so she is going to be the one that I share this love with.

don't lie

Never lie to yourself. And never lie about yourself.

When I was younger, I would lie all the time about the way that I felt. I would tell people that I was perfectly fine when I wasn't. I would tell people that I did something that I really didn't do just to look more likable.

Now, I just feel that if you lie about yourself then you lose who you are ....

.... and who you are is the most precious thing you have.

The Ice Melts

My purpose is to live my most delicious life possible. My life is a gift and what I do with it will be my gift to life in return. I am a new woman today and the best is coming right now.

I am extraordinary. Previously I suspected this fact, but I know it now to be the unmistakable truth. I AM SO BEAUTIFUL---'tis I know!~
I exist for a reason.

I am reborn today, and again tomorrow. I cast off victim-hood and walk forward into a blindingly bright future filled with fulfilled promise. Kindred souls who recognize this new me may join me on this journey. Those who fear this change may watch. I see my dreams and goals already fulfilled and I claim them. And so it is, as for this I am so grateful.

"I do not propose to write an ode to dejection, but to brag as lustily as chanticleer in the morning, standing on his roost, if only to wake my neighbors up." my homie, Thoreau

Today’s Torture Tomorrow’s Laughter




Sitting in a crowded room
She's surrounded but unseen
Smiling with her eyes
She's laughing to mask an inner scream.

AT LAST

I am

: Speaking positive

: Dealing with my issues regardless

: Going to ignore the silent "I can't" and continuously shout "I CAN"

: Not talking about him

: Walking away

: Not going to worry about money

: Free to let go of past disappointments and hurt

: Not focussing on what I do not have or what I did not do

: Stopping to see the real beauty in me

: Not obsessing over my stomach, butt, breasts or thighs

: Proud to be me

: Creating my own destiny

: Sexy



Can I get an Amen "-)
in these moments when it's hard to breathe when words are caught in my throat and my chest is tight with tears when shaving my head and lighting a cigarette all seem like good ideas when my own fabulousness eludes me there is nothing to do and nowhere to go and i just sit in it hazel eyes and all.
I want to change my way of thinking. I refuse to believe that my best years are behind me. Starting today I refuse to live with regret of what I could have accomplished “back in the day”.

All that matters is today, and today I care.

When I really think about it...

It's me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence.

~Paula Cole, "Me," This Fire

Light skin gurls cry too – by Aulelei Love

I usta dream about being dark skin..

the kinda dark skin that would shine when I put vaseline on my knees

I wanted to be "black and beautiful" with "dark and lovely skin" sweeter berry juice complexion

because light skin little gurls are only pretty

in the eyes of boys and old folks

who tell you to shape babies noses so it won't be too wide

I know that I was never really pretty

I just had pretty eyes, pretty hair, pretty skin tone

and "pretty gurls like you shouldn't cry"

but I did

I cried for two weeks straight

then on and off for 17 years

and a couple of hours before and after

when some boy took my pretty with him when he left

so he could have bragging rights at corner dice games

becaused mixed gurls were worth double points

but who was keeping score

when I had to fight black hands to prove I was black enough

I usta wish I was dark skin

so I could walk peacefully at night

without fear of finding razor blades across my face

cutting out the "that bitch thinks she's so fcuking pretty" in me…

I get tired of being light skin

tired of running and smiling and proving and trying not to be "too pretty"

while trying to be pretty enough and black enough and woman enough

and when will enough be enough?


Fcuk beauty

Mountains don’t scare me. The LACK of mountains scare me

"I have learned that it is OK for me to be me, and what being me entails. It means that I will not rest; I will not sleep, relax, relent or be satisfied until my goals have been met, the challenge answered and all my doubters silenced. I will not give in to my foes; I won't let down my teammates. I won't stop inspiring those who look up to me or stop giving motivation to those who motivate me. I will not back off until I'm back on top, back in the place where they said I could never be again. Mountains don't scare me. The LACK of mountains scares me. The climb up, the struggle for every inch of ground and every level of ascension is what feeds me. I welcome that challenge. I welcome that chance to be fed because no matter what no matter how hard, how far, or how many stand in my way, I remain determined. "
- Kobe Bryant
thankFull for the alarm that goes off at 5:00 in the morning - that means I'm still alive

Slow down and jusBreathe


Too many of us are so busy juggling families, careers, setting up businesses, pursuing the higher education thing, and many more of us are fighting it out, to earn that extra dollar and reach the unatainable milestone. Busy busy bees we are.

When do we stop being busy worker bees, and relax take a chill pill? The question of the moment is why should we slow down since this has become a way of life for all of us the norm, the way that we expect things to be. Everyone is struggling to make it better for themselves and for those who have children, struggling to make it better for them, etc., etc., the cycle goes on every day, day after day. 

We need to just stop and unwind, don’t think about what you didn’t accomplish, yesterday, the million and one things that have to get done tomorrow just live the very best you can for today and treasure each and every moment to the fullest.

Like I alwyas say I'm going to shout it out loud Life is short, nothing lasts forever. Do what you want or do what you do best. Cherish your family and friends. NEVER hold back. Say what you think. Live each day without regrets. Be inspired or motivate others. If you say you are gonna do something, then do it. Don’t take anything or anyone for granted, because they might not be there if you leave them. Love. Hate. Laugh. Learn and Teach. Get Drunk. Go out. Bust a Move. Be different. Achieve your goals at your own pace. Respect others and yourself. Trust your intuition. Fkn Swear if you want. Dont settle for second best. Live. Accomplish your dreams. and in the end jusBreathe.
She don’t believe in love no more, no more, no more,

She don’t believe in love no more, no more,

She don’t believe in love no more,

But I believe in her
She would call him and before she could say "come get me", he would say that he was on his way.  He was always the perfect escape at the perfect time. She knew that he would see in her what she wanted him to see.  It was so easy to captivate him.