When he says "I'm not ready for a commitment".
When he is scattered, distant, moody
and distracted.
When his lies oozes easily off his
tongue like butter and you eat it all up.
When he has a Wife.
When he only calls you to hang out
because he is bored or horny (or both).
When the sex is not as satisfying and
over after three long pumps. and leaves you thinking "what the fck".
When you make a little noise every now
and then while pretending his is the best dick you've ever had.
When you're done boosting his ego with bullshit
lies.
When you cant sleep because you can
still taste him in your mouth.
When you're low key rolling your eyes,
shaking your head and just wondering out loud "what the holy high fck"?
You should listen.
Listen to what he says and what he doesn’t
say. Those unspoken words jump out at you and they won’t allow you to deny them.
Watch his actions. Trust your own fcking instincts. That deep down, heart
pulling, tummy nagging feeling? The one that says "this shit just isn’t
worth it" the one that tells you to leave, walk away, fck walking, run
girl run, sprint like Bolt and leave with whatever shred of dignity that
remains.
You should listen to that feeling more often and get the drift.
All you've ever wanted was to be
chosen, but "if he wanted you, wouldn’t he have chosen you" stop
being so loose with your body. You're pussy is magical and powerful and not everyone is
worthy or entitled to its secrets and hidden caves.
Stop pleading with him to "choose me,
choose me ... lets make this thing work, lets make this damn thing work like for
real"
“The women in your family die waiting”,
because you don’t want to die waiting - you patiently wait.
Have some dignity and take pride in
yourself.
He doesn’t want this to work, he wants
what he wants and what he wants is not all of you. What he wants is to drain
you of your energy and time and to suck the life out of your soul. What remains is a black gypsy heart filled with his stench and his dirty fingers mindfcking
your brain.
Yet you stick around. Patiently. waiting
for change.
Always wondering why its so easy to
hook him but you don’t seem to have what it takes to reel him in.
Pathetic.
Why do you subject yourself to being so accessible, open and vulnerable? Who the fck taught you to be so fcking needy.
"I am good enough. I am good. I am
enough". And repeat.
Fck it you're better than just being good enough
and not for one second should you take all thiss booshit that these waste man throw at you.
You still don't get why you can never find the one. Its because you've been so
busy with your head down, eating dick, while getting high on kisses, light
touches, sideway glances, and mid afternoon rendezvous. holding on to
empty, broken promises.
And you miss out.
You come off of your high only to
crash. Feeling distant, alone, lonely and itching for more.
The cycle starts over with a different
man in the same position.
Never truly satisfied.
Adjusts crown slightly.
At the end of the day if he wanted to,
really wanted to he would have chose you. So stop with the excuses and just be
honest with yourself he's told you a million times in a million ways in his
actions that he is ready for a commitment - just not ready to have a
commitment with you.
Coward. Bastard. Lying. Cheating. Motherfckr. Fckn asshole.
If he can't choose to love you now and only whispers the word love in your ear while riding the fck out of you and everything he says after that sounds like liquid sugar dumplings - then he doesn’t get that right to choose to love you when its convenient for him.
"You deserve the love you give, even if you have to give it to yourself"
Love yourself. Have some respect for yourself.
Life is way too short, to wait around
until he decides to love you ...
"In case you forgot you are
deserving of the love you've wasted on men who weren't man enough to love you
the right way"
Fckn asshole.
