its not going to happen.

he's not going to come over today and pull out the toys to play, or ask for something to drink, he won't help me pick up the toys or wipe up the drink he spilled. he's not going to ask me with his curious self "what are you doing"

I keep remembering that it's not going to happen. and every single time, the remembering makes me sad.

R.I.P. Aiden Cupid


"much, much stress results from your wanting to make things happen before their times have come. one of the main ways I assert "My" sovereignty is in the timing of events. if you want to stay close to "Me" and do things "My" way, ask "Me" to show you the path forward moment by moment. instead of dashing headlong toward your goal, let "Me" set the pace. slow down and enjoy the journey in My presence."

in the midsts of some things, it often looks like my life is so messy. like nothing I would ever want. and then God gives me a view from a distance, and my life becomes something of such grand value to me that I wonder how I could ever have wished for it to be something different.
"Assumptions are the death of any relationship"

If you think you know what is going on inside someone else's head, think again. We imagine that we have the power to read one another's mind, when all we are really doing is reading our own.

It's a great self-defense mechanism but no substitute for actual communication. The very best way to know what is really on someone's mind - ask them.

Be your own Valentine: Love yourself



Make this day one of pampering yourself. Indulge in the romantic-comedy cliche' of a bubble bath by candlelight. Give yourself a pedicure. Buy a new shade of lipstick. Book a massage. Buy yourself flowers. Challenge the notion that roses and romance are only for those with significant others, and treat yourself to the little things that make you feel special - because you are.
~Jade Campbell

#nowplaying: Whitney Houston

"learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all"



"....and the Lord ask me what I did with my life, I will say I spent it with you"



"see I'm mooooving on, and I refuse to turn back"

he's out there somewhere

Only pure unadulterated anticipation can make a woman swoon over a stranger like that. Why wouldn’t she? She’s known him more than anyone can ever know him, this man she’s never met. He’s been existing in her head for years now, he appears more clearly in the nooks and corners of every part of her wandering heart.


She walks to her bedside table, switches on the small lamp, and confidently pulls out “The List” from the top drawer. Scrolling down the page with her eyes, she throws her head back, bursting into laughter. She’s in love with him, she cannot lie. Neither can she wait to meet this warrior of a man.

he puts family first
he is polite to his mother and respectful to his father
he has eyes for me only
he works hard
he is humble
he wants the best for me and our children
he does not swear in front of our children
his love for me and our children is unconditional
he is a human jungle gym for our children
he will find the time for our children
he helps with our children at bedtime
he is passionate about our family
he is a good leader
he is disciplined
he is not one to complain
I can trust his judgement
he does the right thing even when he does not want to
he tries to please me
he is organized
I can tell him my deepest secret
he does not judge me
he respects my past and knows I don't live there anymore
he heals me
he knows the real me
he accepts me
he shares his deepest secrets, dreams and hopes with me alone
he loves to get his hands dirty
he is adventurous
he is dependable
he takes command
he can sweet talk me
he is a saver
he is a spender
he encourages me
he can fix anything
he knows when to call a repairman
he is a cutie
he is a snuggler
he asks my opinion
he is in awe at our children
he is committed to our marriage
he is realistic
he surprises me with flowers and gifts
he compliments me
he is a good guy
even when I am wrong he is still kind
he chooses his words gently when I am upset
he is consistent
he cooks
he can clean
he is my all around "Handy Man"
he has simple tastes
he is attracted to me and only me
he has a sweet smile
he is passionate
he does not makes excuses
he knows me
he is a great bug killer
he will help with the laundry
he touches me in all the right ways, and in all the right places
he loves me as we get older
he is a good man but he strives to be better
he values my job as a wife and mother
he is encouraging to our children
he does not belittle me or our children
his eyes does not stray
he does not cheat on me
he does not drink (too much)
he never does drugs (only the OTC ones)
he gets whats important in life
he would do anything to keep me smiling
he would lay down his life for me and our children
his arms are protective
he is strong
he is a beautiful man
he is a phenomenal lover
he would rather be with me and our children than any where else
he pursues a relationship with God
he rolls with the punches
he is a trusted friend
he would give a stranger the shirt off of his back
he is honest
he is not a showoff
he has "it" together
he is always prepared
he is a great provider
he sees thing to be done and does it
he is creative
he calls if he is running late
he is a great hugger
he gives good back rubs
he is happy to work behind the scenes
he makes me laugh
he has a good heart
his kisses leave me breathless
his love leave me weak for more
he is honorable
he takes out the garbage
when he makes decisions he considers the needs of our family first
he is irresistible
he is kind
he has my heart and knows how to handle it with care
he is respected at work
he is a great boss
he is a good employee
he is a man of his word
he desires to be the best husband and father he can be
he is a good companion
he chose me

One day … and hopefully soon … this man she already loves will be hers to keep ….










She hasn’t met him yet, but someday she will.




be kinder than necessary cause everyone you meet has there personal demons.





goodbye Whitney I will always love you

The only genuine love worthy of a name is unconditional.
~John Powell
“Letting go is one of the major cornerstones of being set free. Make a decision to release whatever is holding you back. Don’t hang on to anything that is not empowering you to move forward.”

~Sue Augustine

“The winds that sometimes take something we love, are the same that bring us something we learn to love. Therefore we should not cry about something that was taken from us, but, yes, love what we have been given. Because what is really ours is never gone forever.”
~Bob Marley

#nowPlaying: Jessica Simpson, I want to love you forever




"Helen, if I'm away from you for more than an hour, I can't stop thinking about you. I carry you in my spirit. I pray for you more than I pray for myself. I've got it so bad for you I'd... I'd go to the grocery store and buy your feminine products, I swear I would." - Orlando


*Diary of a Mad Black Woman

#nowPlaying: Anthony Hamilton, Coming from where I'm from




*Coach Carter

Breathe. Close your eyes, clear all thoughts and embrace the moment you are in. No need to worry about tomorrow or the next day, for you might miss the opportunities that are staring you dead in the eye.











A rich pure voice and a style that reflects his songs; easy going and so humble, nt to mention easy on the eyes. such an unforgettable performance; he took me through every emotion imaginable *goosebumps* Love Love Love John Legend a girl can stil "dream, dream, dream ...."
I have a date with John Legend tonight ...... hmmmmm "everybody knows, but nobody really knows"

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. [1 John 4:18-19]