I like to reflect on my life and what I have accomplished up to this point. Usually, I’d get pretty down on myself. This year, however, feels different. I recognize that God has brought me a long, long way. I don’t say this arrogantly or like I have everything figured out; and my life is just peaches and cream, because its not, but rather to simply state that I have achieved some things in my life thus far, and I humbly and gratefully acknowledge that. I am finally on the road of personal growth and success and have found my niche in life and plan to put it to great use.

*I took responsibility over my actions and learned to stop blaming my past and others for the setbacks and troubles I got myself into.

*A relationship that was full of doubt and had been to hell and back ended bad (amicably)

*I found solace in being alone (relationship wise) for the first time in years and really at this point I have no complaints. I have been a serial monogamist since I first started dating practically and it feels good to not have the pressure of being good enough for someone else or living by some one's standards and semi-control.


Man, I feel like a woman, a woman who knows what she wants, and is on the path of obtaining it. I will not settle for anything less than I deserve in life, relationships, career, friendships, etc. Our time here on earth is soooo freaking precious and although sometimes feels like an eternity, it goes by like lighting and can be over in the blink of an eye.

If I make it to be old and gray I want to be able to look back and smile, be proud of, and have the peace that I tried my best to live the unique, fascinating, happy life I was intended to live.

Loving She.

Happy Birthday Jesus
I'm so glad it's Christmas
All the tinsel and lights
And the presents are nice
But the real gift is You

Happy Birthday Jesus
I'm so glad it's Christmas
All the carols and bells
Make the holiday swell
And it's all about You
Happy Birthday Jesus
Jesus I love you

Soul Symphony #2: Lady Lighthouse

// ♥ \\
She has faced trials, disappointments and triumphs.
She has weathered many storms.
Some on behalf of family and community;
some simply because she dared to be born.

But the winds, rain, and fog
and the sweeping undercurrents of a rocky sea
have only helped to grow and ground her
into the woman she was born to be.

The Soul of a Woman is a towering lighthouse,
a bridge that has been gracefully transformed.
She guides others across the rocky seas of life,
teaching them to persevere in times of storm.

\\ ♥ //

~Dr. Nesha Jenkins-Tate

We gazed in each others eyes
leaned in and tasted each others' souls
as we french kissed under the full moon

As I stare at him, I slowly realize I have not yet considered what I have. and lost.

Don't settle for someone and try to love them, there is someone out there with unconditional love waiting to fall deeply in love with you.

Still learning,

-everything doesn't happen when you want it

-laughing is so therapeutic

-to trust my instincts

-to let go sooner, somethings just aren't meant to hold on to

-that even though we are apart, I still like him

-when opportunity knocks, rush to open the door

-I am better off than a whole lot of people, so I need to stop feeling sorry for myself

-family can take any form (friends and strangers)...and that not such a bad thing

-to breathe deeply, and exhale

-to not be afraid of threats, to live for the moment, to prepare for the end

Now playing: No cigarette smoking (in my room) Stephen Marley ft. Melanie Fiona

Tell me what am I supposed to do


Why you got me sitting in here waiting on you

Baby hurry hurry come back

And give me some love this afternoon



Stephen Marley feat. Melanie Fiona - No... by Reggae_Vibe

“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.”
~Buddha

get the EFF out my way ...

Hakuna Matata, "what will be, will be"!

The Lion King

Life is going to be a challenge. There will be rough times, difficult situations, things to fall into, major obstacles, hurdles, stumbling, blocks, forks in the road, knives in the back, mountains to climb, things to get over, oppositions to resolve, unpleasantness to face, feelings to understand, disappointments to accept, mysteries to solve, wonders to unfold and promises to keep to yourself. Now that you know what to expect, prepare yourself. Get ready. The only way to get to where you want to be is to do what needs to be done to get there. Do it fast. Do it slow. Do it right. Do it up. Do it in the daylight. Do it by the moonlight. Do it alone. Do it with others. Do it for free. Get paid to do it. Do it with others. Do it for the world. The moment you give up on doing it, it will never get done.

Iyanla Vanzant Acts Of Faith

It's okay, I'll sit on the sidelines just as long as he sits with me ...

~Mary, Mary - Sitting with Me

Women are the beauty of life; her heart colors every rainbow, her soul brightens an angel’s sky. A woman’s beauty is her heart, she has pride and dignity and that is not to be taken away from her, she is to be respected and loved truthfully and she is not to be abused period. She is to be appreciated for the love that shines from her heart and for the beautiful glow of her soul. Never take a woman’s heart for granted for all she dreams for is unconditional love. A woman’s beauty is a love undefined

~Lee Held

He rises to greet her, no hugs, no touching and yet something

That unspoken something, that needs no explaining

I am meant to be seen, heard, felt, touched, loved, adored, honored, and cherished
Forever and ever

He smiles

He says I’m beautiful

The Empowered Woman, she moves through the world
with a sense of confidence and grace.
Her once reckless spirit now tempered by wisdom.
Quietly, yet firmly, she speaks her truth without doubt or hesitation
and the life she leads is of her own creation.

She now understands what it means to live and let live.
How much to ask for herself and how much to give.
She has a strong, yet generous heart
and the inner beauty she emanates truly sets her apart.
Like the mythical Phoenix,
she has risen from the ashes and soared to a new plane of existence,
unfettered by the things that once that posed such resistance.

Her senses now heightened, she sees everything so clearly.
She hears the wind rustling through the trees;
beckoning her to live the dreams she holds so dearly.
She feels the softness of her hands
and muses at the strength that they possess.
Her needs and desires she has learned to express.
She has tasted the bitter and savored the sweet fruits of life,
overcome adversity and pushed past heartache and strife.

And the one thing she never understood,
she now knows to be true,
it all begins and ends with you.

~Author Unkown

The Strength of a Man

The strength of a man
isn't seen in the width
of his shoulders.
It's seen in the width
of his arms that circle you..

The strength of a man
isn't in the deep tone
of his voice.
It's in the gentle
words he whispers...

The strength of a man
isn't how many buddies he has.
It's how good a buddy
he is with his kids...

The strength of a man isn't
in how respected he is at work.
It's in how respected
he is at home...

The strength of a man
isn't in how hard he hits.
It's in how tender
he touches...

The strength of a man
isn't in the hair on his chest.
It's in his Heart,
that lies within his chest...

The strength of a man
isn't how many women he's loved.
It's in can he be
true to one woman...

The strength of a man
isn't in the weight he can lift.
It's in the burdens
he can carry...

~Author Unknown

He asked, "Can you see her, what is she doing?"
The God replied: "Searching for you."

"Thor"

You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived, are the moments when you have done things in a spirit of love.

~ Henry Drummond