Remember when you told me, after holding me, that you would leave me ... never
Remember when ...
Remember ..
I do .

I wish ...

… I was as bold and brave as I used to be, when we first met.


… That I wouldn't have let him stump so hard on my heroic shell, shattering it all into pieces.


… he would just tell me that he isn’t in love with me, the way he used to be or perhaps not even at all.


… he could accept the fact that I’m just not like everyone else. I can’t/won’t just do because … because he says so.


… that I could put aside the fact that yes I have a good man but seemingly just not good enough … at least not for me.


… I could rewind time and not have any children so that I would never have to communicate with him ever again.


… that he would simply leave me.


… that he could simply agree that this … just is not working … and walk away gracefully.


****They say watch what you ask for, Cause you just might receive ... But if you ask me tomorrow ... I will say the same thing****